Motherhood has always been a dream of mine.
Sometimes your dreams come true, but if we are being honest sometimes dreams are only endless hours of wishful thinking.
I have always considered my dream of motherhood as a desire so noble and good that it was bound to come true. Last night my dreams came tumbling down because I learned that I might just fail in all that motherhood stands for. You see I lack an ability all mothers must have. I am positive it is a highlighted section on the first page of the Motherhood Handbook. A skill so drastically needed that one should not even consider bearing children if one does not possess this particular skill.
Here is how I came to the realization that I would not have the skills necessary to perform motherly duties.
I was just looking at someone's Prom pictures on facebook (they were really cute). Under one picture of a girl pinning on the boutonniere read a caption that said "Here I am pretending to pin on the boutonniere. Thankfully my mom took over after this was taken." This picture and caption brought back a flood of memories to my mind. I believe I was only successful once at pinning on the boutonniere, and my mom probably fixed it while I wasn't looking. Then the truth struck. If this boutonniere pinning on was a motherly task, it was something I would fail at. If I can't do it now when will I have the opportunity to practice up for when it is my turn to step in as a mother and help a nervous daughter who can't get it quite right.
Yesterday I discovered I do not have this skill, thus I believe I am doomed to a life without children.
